“Even if my pregnancy went rather well medically speaking, for the baby and for me too (apart from the classic ailments: nausea, back pain, fatigue…), I did not like being pregnant. Too many questions arise for this first pregnancy, my new role as mother: will I go back to work afterwards? Is breastfeeding going to be okay? Will I be available enough day and night to breastfeed her? How am I going to deal with fatigue? Lots of questions for dad too. I felt sadness and the feeling of not being understood by my entourage. It is as if I got lost…”
Morgan
“What bothers me during pregnancy?” Nebûna azadiyê (of movements and projects), and especially the weak position what that supposes and which is impossible to hide! ”
Emilia
“Being pregnant is a real ordeal. As if, for nine months, we no longer existed! I was not myself, I had nothing exciting to do. It’s like a daze, we are not at all interesting round like a ball. No party, no alcohol, I was tired all the time, no pretty clothes for a pregnant woman either … I had a depression that lasted nine months. Lebê, I love my son madly and I am very motherly. My friend wants a second child, I told him okay, as long as he’s the one carrying it! ”
Marion
” I do not have not at all liked being pregnant, despite a pregnancy that many would envy me. I had the traditional nausea and fatigue of the first trimester, but I didn’t find it so bad, it’s part of the game. However, the following months, it’s a different story. First, baby move, at first I found it just unpleasant, then over time, I found it painful (I had liver surgery, my scar is 20 cm and, inevitably, the baby was growing under it). The last month, I woke up at night crying in pain … Afterwards, we can no longer move normally, putting on my boots was taking a long time, I had to contort myself in all directions to finally realize that the calf had swollen too. In addition, we can no longer carry anything heavy, when we raise animals, we must call for help for an unfortunate haystack, one becomes dependent, it is very unpleasant!
I dared not say that morally it was wrong, for fear of shocking people. Everyone imagines that being pregnant is absolute happiness, how can we explain that we find it detestable? And also, the guilt of making my baby feel that way, which I already loved more than anything. I had a huge fear that my little girl would feel unloved. Suddenly, I spent my time talking to my stomach, telling her that it was not her who made me miserable, but that I just couldn’t wait to see her in person rather than in my stomach. I take my hat off to my husband, who has supported and comforted me throughout this time, as well as to my mom and my best friend. Without them, I think my pregnancy would have turned into depression. I advise all future mothers who find themselves in this situation to talk about it. When I finally managed to tell people how I felt, I finally heard a lot of women say “you know, I didn’t like that either”… You must not believe that, because you don’t like being pregnant, you won’t know how to love your child… ”
Zulfaa